Goals and Dreams

At the beginning of the year I sat down with my Mr B and wrote a list of goals and dreams, some I 'knew' I would achieve, others I was 'certain' I would achieve . . . None I 'doubted' I would'nt achieve.

Things have changed . . . Hurdles in the name of injuries 

As I work through aspects of sadness and disappointment, I watch my heart deal with anger and frustration, quietly bleeding. 

We are all just living our stories, and some things have to happen to put us on the right path again, with a kindly reminder to ‘dream a little bigger darling’ or in my case look at what I have achieved rather than what I haven't.

Out of the 11 goals and dreams I have already achieved 4; next week I will achieve a further 2 and by the end of the year another 2.  

I need to give myself an opportunity to notice this place I am at, and find a starting point for a new journey, with new goals and dreams. 

I am sitting here wondering how to make the next steps happen, some of my answers are simple but yet at the same time complicated; letting go and trusting, is something I struggle to do, but yet the past six months have taught me to do.

Taking deep breaths , enchanted by some gentle encouragement from family, friends and professionals. I go outside to sit, read a trashy magazine and watch the sky for a while, as the clouds shift to reveal blue and let the sun shine through I think about later this week and the journey it will bring and 2 more of my goals and dreams will be ticked off.

I have been impatient and anxious for spring to arrive, and now it’s here with all it’s hope and promises.  Spring is rewarding my resilience with slow signs of progress, and reminding me summer will be here soon enough; meanwhile it’s time to appreciate where I am and what I have achieved.  

To live in the moment, enjoy the potential and notice new opportunities blossoming. 

And that was May

Waiting: Around at airports and train stations 
Playing: I spy and I'm thinking about

Wearing: PJ's for night flights AND back into the summer clothes
Needing: Sleep 

Deciding: The cherry blossom is just as beautiful as the cherry itself

Liking: Cherries

Watching: My daughter take in the wonder of it all

Marvelling: At the traditions which continue

Smelling: Korean BBQ and street food

Cooking : Silkworm pupae 

Wanting: to experience it all

Noticing: Barbed wire everywhere

Thinking: about North Korea and South Korea

Feeling: Sad for the people

Hoping: Unification comes during my lifetime

Knowing: these days are going far to fast

Loving: Family, meeting my nieces, spending time with my brother and sister in law

Giggling: At how alike our children are 

Wishing: we lived in the same country

Looking: For coffee

Buying: Coffee

Drinking : Coffee as it comes, iced or hot I do not care

Writing:  Instructions on how to get us from A to B using Google Maps and Coffee

Making : Memories

Feeling: Proud 

Admiring: Their individual strengths and personalities 

Enjoying: The sights and sounds of Korea and HongKong . . . Cities and countryside

Reading: Signs translated into English

Laughing: At signs translated into English

Wondering: About apartment living 

Imagining: What our home suburb will look like once apartment living starts

You can get a list from Meet Me At Mikes

Week 21 of 52

Hong Kong Stopover

Z & P - You both remembered Disneyland from our Europe holiday 3 years ago so were very much looking forward to this trip.  A little bit of rain was not going to stop your excitement.  

10 hours of magical excitement . . . 

We did every ride at least twice and got to meet some of our favourite characters.  

Z you are like your father with your desire for adrenalin rushes, whereas P you were more cautious watching us all do a ride once first before deciding if you would join for the second.  Z & P you both laughed hysterically when some rides caused your Mama to say bad words!