Goals and Dreams

At the beginning of the year I sat down with my Mr B and wrote a list of goals and dreams, some I 'knew' I would achieve, others I was 'certain' I would achieve . . . None I 'doubted' I would'nt achieve.

Things have changed . . . Hurdles in the name of injuries 

As I work through aspects of sadness and disappointment, I watch my heart deal with anger and frustration, quietly bleeding. 

We are all just living our stories, and some things have to happen to put us on the right path again, with a kindly reminder to ‘dream a little bigger darling’ or in my case look at what I have achieved rather than what I haven't.

Out of the 11 goals and dreams I have already achieved 4; next week I will achieve a further 2 and by the end of the year another 2.  

I need to give myself an opportunity to notice this place I am at, and find a starting point for a new journey, with new goals and dreams. 

I am sitting here wondering how to make the next steps happen, some of my answers are simple but yet at the same time complicated; letting go and trusting, is something I struggle to do, but yet the past six months have taught me to do.

Taking deep breaths , enchanted by some gentle encouragement from family, friends and professionals. I go outside to sit, read a trashy magazine and watch the sky for a while, as the clouds shift to reveal blue and let the sun shine through I think about later this week and the journey it will bring and 2 more of my goals and dreams will be ticked off.

I have been impatient and anxious for spring to arrive, and now it’s here with all it’s hope and promises.  Spring is rewarding my resilience with slow signs of progress, and reminding me summer will be here soon enough; meanwhile it’s time to appreciate where I am and what I have achieved.  

To live in the moment, enjoy the potential and notice new opportunities blossoming.