Pain is debilitating.
I've been struggling since my 14km run 2 weeks ago, entering back into a darkness I know only too well.
Yesterday through many tears I finally came to the conclusion why kill my body with 21km when I can do it with 12km ...
Gut wrenchingly, disappointingly, I made the decision to transfer my Auckland half marathon I've been training all year for, to the 12km.
I did well with the 14km a few weeks ago, however, the weeks which have followed have taken my pain levels to new highs.
I haven't been sleeping well and it's all I could do to pretend to the world I was still functioning.
Whilst I am not to blame for the original cause of this pain ... I am not blame free if I continue to knowingly do things which flare it up.
I’m scared of the pain and its effect on me mentally and emotionally. I’d much rather be a fully functioning person for my family than break myself by doing a 1/2 marathon.
Of course this decision also comes with further disappointment regarding this injury, but like I said to my Mr B how can I expect professionals to look after me when I'm not looking after myself.
2 comments:
Sorry for your disappointment, but you must care for yourself. You know your body's limits more than anyone else. Good luck!!!
What a hard decision! But the right one I think. Go hard in the 12km and set your sights on the half next year or the year after, you have come so far already! Looking after yourself is always a good decision.
xx
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