Friday, September 18, 2015

The Irony Isn't Lost On Me .. .. ..

This morning over coffee I was able to reflect on the words of the Nicomachean Ethics and put some of my own life and events into context.

There are three kinds of injury:
Those that are done in ignorance are 'mistakes' 
When the injury occurs contrary to reasonable expectation it is a 'misadventure'
When acting knowingly but without premeditation it is an 'injury'

With this in mind I thought back to February 13th and March 17th, significant dates relating to my injuries; were they mistakes, misadventures or injuries?


People are called courageous for enduring pain.  Hence courage implies the presence of pain and it is rightly praised, because it is hard to bear pain.  
This morning I spoke the words to my counsellor; I'm scared and frightened, it's been six months, what if I don't get better?


There have been too many times over the past six months where the pain has got on top of me and I've wanted to give up, this past week being the worst.  Miscommunication mixed with pain is not a good combination.  I have doubted myself; my pain (was I a hypercondriac), my ethics, my ability to succeed, even doubting the people around me.
This week I've suffered my biggest panic attacks in a long time. 


This week I have talked with many professionals about my 'injury' and the past six months and the natural feelings to which I am liable.   


Today I found myself thinking about the incidents, were they an injury a mistake or a misadventure?  

February 13th - misadventure
March 17th - mistake

For the person who caused it was doing wrong and their act resulted in my injury but this does not of itself make them unjust or wicked.  
Mistakes committed not only in ignorance but as the result of ignorance are pardonable.  


Today upon reading the 'Nicomachean Ethics Book V: Justice - Grades of Misconduct' I made peace within myself and the person responsible for my injury.  

The irony of my topic studies and my life lessons is not lost on me . . .

1 comment:

Simoney said...

I love these photos of you Cat! (amazing how your studies tie in with what you're going through too = irony indeed)
P.S. let me know when you want to come over and work on a new blog design x