Waking late, slowly, struggling to shed the layers of sleep ~ 3 time zones in 9 days ...
Sitting propped up in bed with the 'good' coffee my Mr B had earlier gone in search for my thoughts drifted ...
I had wanted to run the 1/2 marathon over the Auckland Harbour Bridge so badly and had hung on so tightly that in the weeks, months leading up to us going away, I was trying my absolute best, working my hardest, but yet crying myself to sleep, or lying awake, clenching my teeth, drifting through days. My determination focused so intensely on my goal. And then eventually, somewhere, just a bit further beyond almost insane, a voice in my head said: '_Really_ Is it such a big deal? Is it so important? Is it the be all and end all?' ... At which point I dug my heels in a little further, failing to acknowledge my efforts were actually totally disproportionate to what I hoped to achieve and my energy expenditure was way off balance, and actually I was neglecting the really important things, like the people who love me and the professionals who were trying to look after me: mind and body ...
Some may say (and did) I was stubborn, and resolute, and impatient, or more politely put ... determined.
I didn't see any other options/goals around me, other opportunities for different, possibly better adventures, or even just alternative routes to the place I had been so intent on going .. .. ..
Thankfully my Mr B (thinking with his head rather than his heart) listened to the professionals and came up with alternative goals ...
Hello cycling around Mandurah, Alice Spring and Sydney including over the Sydney Harbour Bridge *wow* AND *squee* a Harley Ride around Sydney also including the Harbour Bridge ~ according to my Mr B I was to commit the ultimate in motor bike betrayal by going on the back of a Harley, but he booked it anyway ...
So another valuable lesson for me, continue to learn to let go, trust, breathe, surrender, accept life in all its rich possibility and #suckitupprincess ...
Online messages from a friend back in NZ interrupted my thought process, so soon I was wide awake and firing my inquisitive neurons again.
Sydney needed to be explored by bicycle and Harley ...
PHOTOS: taken in Australia on our childfree holiday
3 comments:
Looks like you've had an absolute blast!
Good that you are allowing yourself to be cared for and accepting that sometimes other people have the wisdom to help you best xxx
Looks like fun !!
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